My head is like a record. Spinning and spinning. At the quiet times when I'm zoning out, the record begins to play. Call me DJ Mama. Driving down the road. Quietness in the car. But not my head. The record spins. The tune reminds me that they're not so little. That the definition of myself as mother has changed. I'm not the stroller pushing, Cheerio toting mommy of years ago. Years ago. Is it really years ago? The role has changed but not the importance. Just keep feeling the beat.
-dana
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I so know what you are talking about Dana. I miss the stroller days, snuggles from little people, squeaky voices. But I'm proud of who my little have turned out to be. Have a wonderful weekend!!! :)
I am going to tell you to celebrate the amazing youngpeople you are raising, but I get the notion that you already do that. Still, your words made me teary eyed. I cannot listen to the radio any longer because when they play sonegs like "She thinks we're just fishin'" I get all weepy.
Ahhhh, yes. Even with a 28 yo and a 30 yo I am shown that they need me in some way every day. And that I need them. It changes and evolves but it is always there and always the best thing I have done in my life. Period.
It's good to be a mom of growing littles! My littles are grown but even as young adults they turn to me for help, just as I still turn to my own mother :) Isn't it great to be part of the cycle!
If your kids are anything like mine...they will always need their mama. It's these times when you know you did a good job and raised them to be loving adults. I know you are that mom. Enjoy this next phase of mothering. xo
Ok, DJ Dana.
I've been in that area for so dang long since my oldest left the nest and left me going...what? You're not supposed to leave until you're at least 90.
Now my youngest is inching closer to that age (18, not 90)but she assures me that she won't bolt the place as quickly.
Do I miss the little ages? Sometimes. I'm enjoying the young adult age. It allows me to sink towards my dottering old age routine. ;) I have to practice, don't I?
Even at their ages, they still need me and that's wonderful. What I should have realized (sooner) was that I would need something to do with myself as they launched into this great age.
Now you have me singing Right Said Fred and thinking of names for an idea youngest and I had in the car. It's times like those that keep me going...knowing I've done my best raising two wonderful kids who will do wonderful things as they mature.
And take care of me...lol. I tease them about that... I think. ;)
You're doing a great job. Be proud, DJ Dana, and watch them spread those wings and try those ages out. They'll always need mom in some way.
Now to get that song out of my head......gah!
i will tote some extra cheerios and raisins and think of you and your not so littles! xoxo
Now that we are out of diapers and finger foods, strollers and car seats I have also been redefining my roll as mother. You know what - I sure don't miss hauling that car seat carrier around LOL!
DJ Dana, the record is a lifelong one, just the tune changes along the journey :) Subtle changes that you don't notice imediately but head slapping when you do! The phase just changed here too, thanks for reminding me to enjoy the ride :)
love you, dana :]
love you, dana ;]
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