Thursday, April 30, 2009

Dear Future #4

(Every now and then I write a letter to my daughters. For them to read in the future. I just want them to know some things about their mother. This is one of them.)





I'm not so good with change. Change of routine. Change of personality. Change of what I know.

Well, it's not so much that I'm not so good with change. I mean change is good. I always love to rearrange a room and change it up a bit. What I mean is that it takes me longer to adjust to some kinds of changes than I would like.




You girls change sometimes before I'm even aware it is happening. I'm still operating under the "old" way and find myself frustrated, confused and down right befuddled that you've changed without me knowing it.



My greatest goal in life is to be the best mother to the two of you. I try each day to let you be the people that you are. The changing people that you are.




I just wish I'd snap to quicker sometimes and realize that you are changing . . . or rather . . . growing, discovering, experimenting, and transforming right before my very eyes. Every. Single. Day.

And I'm just gonna have to deal with it.

Love,
Mom

21 comments:

Elissa said...

i am pretty slow on adjustments sometimes too. i felt a little this way when i looked at cal sleeping in the car on our trip and he didn't look like a baby anymore, but a boy. do you know what i mean? how for the longest time, no matter how big they look awake, they still look like your baby when they fall asleep. and all of a sudden, he wasn't.

wish i could roll with it a little better sometimes, or keep up, or something.

no matter how things go down, dana, those girls will ALWAYS know how much you love them.

Amy @ Park City Girl said...

I get you :) It happens so fast -- I can't seem to keep up. I've cried more than once thinking about how amazing my little ones are, and how big they are getting -- here I go again :/

Love all your flower shots, we are finally turning green and my allergies are a mess. . .

Mary on Lake Pulaski said...

And deal with it the best we can...because before you know it, they've grown up and moved away...give them a hug. I miss my little girl.

Kelsi said...

Beautiful post Dana! AND your photography is just fantastic!!

King family said...

Oh I hear the love in that post Dana. The girls are always gonna think your amazing. It seems while their young you don't feel very appreciated, it's later after they have grown the rewards are spectacular. That's when we know we gave them good direction. While children are young they are ever changing, mostly for the good. Stop me now, I sound like some authority figure. It's just that I raised 3 girls and have a tender hearts for girls. I think of myself and the girls when I read your post most often.

wendysquilting said...

It seemed when my girls were little just as I'd get used to the stage they were at they'd move into the next one and all four of them are very different in many ways. Now they are starting to spread their wings and fly away.....this change while very exciting is also very challenging too.
I love what you wrote, so true and so full of love.

tam said...

Aww very sweet post! I can sooo relate-seems like I was the mother of tiny little angels and now they are all grown up. Just happened in a blink of an eye! ~Tam :)

dwhite said...

oh so true my friend - you hit the nail right on the head.

nicola said...

i can relate! to all of it. and i write letters to my kids for future reading, too.
nicola
http://whichname.blogspot.com

ps. i just found my way back to your blog (from birch swinging) after a long time away.

Terri said...

Awww. Very nice post!

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Artfulife said...

How very true!

Sam said...

Beautiful post and I took the liberty to translate that in French - very liberal translation - and quoting you - to my daugther..
A beautiful 16-yr old teenager in a midst of TONS of changes.

amylouwho said...

I'm right there with you. I always blame change in routine issues on my kids not being able to handle it, when really, it's just me.

Thanks for sharing!

Eesh said...

What a great idea. Makes me want to go back and continue writing in my daughter's journal.

Dianne said...

I so understand. I'm still wondering how my children became 40, 39 and 28...time just flew by. And, yet, it seems like yesterday they were babies...then toddlers...and then they went to college! Keep writing those letters...

Annika said...

Your pictures are amazingly beautiful!

Anonymous said...

Oh, I'm teary eyed! I can see the quick changes of my baby becoming a toddler, the exciting changes of my 3 year old becoming her own person with such strong likes and dislikes. My 8 year old son is much more sneeky in his changing. I find myself trying to deal with him the same old way and needing to change myself as well to keep up! Thank you for sharing the beautiful letter!

Little Green Doll said...

Very nice letter! I'm sure they will love it when they read it!

jacquie said...

wonderful letter dana...i just wrote one to my son for his 18th birthday.

Gorgia said...

Don't blink or you may miss the best days of your childrens lives. I wish i could go back.